Me....I know a hazy picture, yet this was in the early digital phonecamera times of 2012, and a friend made the Picture while I was holding that young crow I just saved from a cat...It still captures me in most of my essence, while also keeping my privacy
With a difficult life, being Hermaphrodite, I searched and covered my own roads. I've travelled all over Europe, and even ended up in Siberia and Beijing.
After the seperation of my parents , and a difficult puberty, (both mental as well as physical) I got a German girlfriend at 21, she lost our child and herself as she used died due drug overdose.
I have studied to be a teacher in Biology/Ecology/Physics/Chemistry/Geology, did even succeed al my 3 years of intership, yet in the last half year for the exam I got so discriminated and degraded by some teachers (who should teach me to become a teacher) so much, I could no longer study.
I entered university, yet the joy was stolen, after my succesful propaedeutic year I decided to quit, and do work instead.
Amongst a variety of several joyless or downright discriminatary jobs/colleagues, I've been 9 years a professional dancer(the Devil for 5 years) at House parties like Loveparade, Sensation, Mysteryland, etc. which was very fun to do. At the same time I had started my own shop on the market, trading in all things phantasy, (games, Cards, Books, Shoes, Jewelry, Fashion, some kink stuff, etc). Discrimination became worse, and I had to stop. Then my fiance seperated using the discrimination against me, while she did pleasure men. Still battling my study debt, I even became homeless, again out of discrimination.
In 2014 I after 4 years living on the street, I finally got a home, and my fight to conquer all the misschief could finally get along. I had a miscarriage, and felt more alone.
I did design Gagaesk shoes, clothing and other fantasy stuff for theater/film or Elffantasy fair or Castlefair in the Netherlands, and intend to do it anew. I also did some theatre with Adelheid Rosen and Ola Mafalaani in " Zina neemt de wijk" (dutch for Zina takes on the suburbs).
In 2021, I finally have succeeded to pay off all my debts (total paid 143.000), I am healthy, though since 04-jan 2000 alone without a girlfriend's love, since april 2000 without intimacy and 06-01-2022 even without BFF, my mother disconnected from me in 2001, my brother joined a cult, and I was thee bad one due being me, so being really alone , and that hurts.
I Write especially fantasy stuff which can be found on breathofmystara.blogspot.nl/ or on the pandius.com site of the D&D world Mystara. read also this site where many ideas for Mystara sprout; www.thepiazza.org.uk/bb/viewfo…, not only from my mind but of many others.
I Draw my own art with different tools, I am also a poet, teacher and avid collector of weird books, stuff and knowledge. (Comicbooks, Smurfs, Science books, fossils, shells, biology research stuff, weird potion bottles, magic stuff, teddybears, and D&D stuff, recipies, overall knowledge).
As of 03-09-2017 I have 3 female kittens born 28-04-2017(named Pooka, Aagje, Munchie), 2 goldfish of hatched somewhere in may 2020, and since june 2023 a saved male kitten Amber and two ( 29-12-2019 ) white-ish bunnies(named Brazen and Cute), which hopp on my grasscovered balcony and eat a lot and a lot more animals in my history (Multiple Cats (35 in total), Dogs (4), Horses(2), Hedgehogs(11), Marter(1), Weazel(1), Ferret(1), Rabbits(3), Russian Dwarf Hamsters(4), Mice (400+) Rat(2), Guppies(100+), Red-neck tortoises(2), Raccoon(1), Mus(5+), Swan(1), Ducks(12+), Blackbird(3), Crow(4), Sparrow(2), Owl(1), Pigeon(20+), Bill(2), Carp(3), Bass(2),and several goldfish(20+), Guppies(4000+), silverstripe snails(10+), etc.)
For those interested; Yes these are my own nails, I can't function without.
Through corsetry I have trained my waist to be 54 cm circumference and intend to go much smaller. My great-great-great-great-great-grandmother of 1877 had a 15inch waistline at the age of 24 and that after 2 kids , before she even had 11.5 inch , I intend to approach that with a minimum goal of 45cm(17.7inch) --every inch more is welcomed, as my ideal would be 16 inch or less.
I walk daily several miles on my 6 inchheels (or even 7 inch without platform), but as a catwalk/High Heel trainer and former dancer, I keep my feet flexible and healthy.
To make one thing certain; I am only attracted to women. I do NOT feel ANY attraction to men other than professional (like art), or friendship at best!!!
My friend, Happy Birthday!, Big Hugs!🎂😊.
Thanks
You're very welcome❤️😊, how are you feeling?.
up and down through the rollercoaster of life
Just an FYI - In my game several groups of Shadow Elves and Alfheim Elves have journeyed to the Sylvan Realm of CM7 (Tree of Life) to see if mutual relocation of the Shadow Elves and others is possible to reclaim the land, their surface cousins teaching them to adapt to their new environment.
that sounds interesting, especially as per cm7 the region is still beset by moorkrofts agents and thoughts